i cried just now,now i am so sorrow . thats no choice, only i can choice to expreress my emoution.because i dont know how to talk. and too weak.right, iam weak. sometimes  my action show me ok,but i am not. i start to get yonger  mind than before. i show i am happy.but actually i  am too fool.even make trouble.i dont wanna talk .but i need to make sth clear, and  its must ! no choice. what i have did sth wrong on earth?. i think i just pretent to show myselfs normal, but not.i am a bad girl? is it right. sometimes you chocie ,you must hold on,if not, thats a big problem. i dont know i am right ? sth can be cruel  to you, i dont wanna to say,even to think about this . modify this? oh my godness! i whish ,just i wish.i show the things let me feel i am childish and not mature.

i cired sadly, thats so long time to let me cry. i prentend i am ok. so how can i do for this?  just my soft heart , i heard soft music.and calm down myself . no ways can help yourself. WHO AM I? WHAT CAN I BE? i got lost.even i start to suspect myself. AM I GOOD?maybe not. i get sth new ,like my hair,even i feel angry about this.i also need to make clear about my volunteer .so i am in mess. even a lot.

when i got hurt in life, i start to feel sary . i dont know why. I AM NOT STRONG.

do you believe truth? i hate guess.i dont know am i right,because i  also get discouraged about life. my hard meet crule. so got cold heart. no sense ,really no sense. WHO KNOW YOU?nobody, even yourself.

ok ,forget all this. let me tell sth good. my colse friend will be maried.congratulation! god wishes.